Cristina's mind

I regret that I love you so deeply, and still know that this relationship is no longer viable. I regret that I lie awake at night missing you so badly it physically hurts. I regret the dreams I have about holding your soft body close to mine. I regret this loss in the pit of my stomach like a singularity on the brink of explosive expansion. I regret that when it implodes, my heart will melt into a puddle of nuclear waste, and eons will pass before it is whole again. Yet, as bad as things got, I will never regret the beautiful gift you have given me. The gift of intense, painful love that led to such profound personal growth. I will love you forever because of that.